Tonight on a Facebook group dedicated to Lightworkers of the world, someone ask "How does one deal with complex PTSD?"
My soul immediately did a loving and supporting grin and said "My dear, sit down. We need to talk!"
How does one deal with having complex PTSD??!!!
*BIG GOD DAMN EXHALE
First, it is all subjective and relavent to the individual. PTSD is all consuming and impacts every way of life, and it comes in waves. Sometimes it hits you like a Tsunami without warning and you feel like you're drowning, and sometimes it recedes leaving you exposed and relieved in the calmness.
Let's be honest, I am not a trained psychologist, or counselor. I am someone who is here because I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder since the age of 10. I turn 40 this year. I'm not a professional, but I can talk about my PTSD...ALL...DAY...LONG.
I can only account for my personal experience. And by sharing my thoughts, emotions and journey, I hope that others find comfort in knowing they are not the only ones.
I started learning energy healing because of PTSD. It was suggested to me by a friend. I tried it.. I was drawn to it...it called to me...and it changed me at the core. I owe many great things to it.
However, even before that, I can tell you that my largest obstacles of dealing with PTSD were:
1. I will never get back to the person who I was before the trauma. No matter how much I wished, prayed, begged and wanted to.
Searching for that untainted childhood innocence could not be returned to me. And believe me...I Wished! I Prayed! I Begged! And at the time, it's all I ever wanted. More than anything. Who would I be if this never happened to me?
Result: I love the person I am today. Through the bottom of the barrel moments, to the times where I stood up for myself and my life, I can finally say I LOVE MYSELF AND MY LIFE. It's been a long road. But I'm still traveling it. I'm still surviving, and baby...I'm thriving.
What I came to acknowledge and embrace is that you decide to only learn from it, move through it, become strong from it and move forward. Burn all those drowning waves of anxiety and depression with flames of strength, ambition and resilience. THAT is what you become.
2. I used to fear the anxiety, panic attacks and depression returning, which caused anxiety in itself. Why won't it go away? Why can't I just be happy? Why can't I walk down streets and judge little girls holding on to their grandfather's hands and see love. Why do I always think there is something darker happening behind closed doors???
Result: Healing is in layers, and knowing that I have the ability to do so, the more I easily deal with those layers as they come forward and it allows me a better understanding of myself, and I can process those layers easier.
I realize that the world really is filled with love and goodness, and that we can achieve that if we give ourselves the chance.
Yes, anxiety and depression will rise from time to time, but this is your spirit saying..."You're strong enough to heal from more! It is time! Here is your layer. Move through it! You are powerful, and capable! You are loved!"
3. Will it ever go away fully?
My Result: I've turned my PTSD into a future and career, and transformed it by embracing it; by hoping to help others. You CAN do this, no matter how hard it is sometimes. PTSD is a BITCH, but you are stronger, and you are meant to be here and shine your light.
So light it up my dear! So bright it blinds the people and situations that tried to darken you.
YOU got this! Not PTSD!
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